Tased and Contused

I know I promised more Dirk and Jesse home movies, and there will be more of us coming… soon. (Feel free to read that both ways.) Our plan is to release videos where I top on my blog, and where he tops on his blog. While I encode the videos for web distribution (compress them, add watermarks, etc, which takes a little time), I thought I’d share this behind-the-scenes video from Loud and Nasty, which comes out tomorrow only at TitanMen.com. Think of it as a teaser trailer (um, make that “taser trailer”). We had a LOT of fun filming this scene, and I think that comes through here. As Dirk so eloquently states at 0:43, “I’m in trouble.” Yes.. yes he is.

Be sure to check out the official preview and — for those of you who subscribe to TitanMen.com — full scene tomorrow, May 1! And if you’re not a subscriber… sign up now! By the way, “Tased and Contused” is the title I originally proposed for this movie, but unfortunately it didn’t gain any traction. Boo! 🙁

Jesse Fucks Dirk, and some HUGE News

If you think THAT’s hot, wait until you see the one at DirkCaber.com !!
Read on for more info, and a BIG announcement…

I’ve been hinting for several weeks about a very special scene I filmed for a movie in Titan’s Rough series called Loud and Nasty. I’m VERY excited to finally announce that my scene partner for my very first Rough scene is……


Titan almost never works with real-life couples when filming (many couples are surprised to find the on-screen dynamic to be very different from the privacy of their own bedroom/dungeon/wherever, and this can cause problems on the set), so we consider it a HUGE honor… but since Titan is a big part of the reason why Dirk and I met, I think it’s pretty fitting. And our on-screen chemistry was, of course, intense!

To celebrate (and to get you warmed up for the scene’s release this Tuesday, May 1 only on TitanMen.com), Dirk and I have decided to post some of our home movies. You know, just to give you a taste. The above video is my half of a flip-fuck Dirk and I enjoyed just last week in Chicago; Dirk has posted the companion video (from the same marathon session) at DirkCaber.com, so be sure to check it out!!! And watch for our video at TitanMen.com this Tuesday!!

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Shopping at Mr. S Leather

After we’d wrapped production of my scene with Adam Russo for the upcoming Titan film Busted, Titan director Jasun Mark, Adam, and I wandered over to Mr. S Leather to do a little shopping. Jasun, ever the documentarian, shot and edited this video of me sampling floggers and trying on rubber shorts. I ended up buying a sweet leather gym bag (briefly visible at the 7:53 mark) and a pair of Nasty Pig socks. Sadly, I didn’t get the shorts… they looked pretty cool, but were a bit too constricting. Besides, I need to save my money for IML!

You’ve got questions. I’ve got answers.

People often contact me on Facebook, Twitter, or here on this blog to ask me questions about what it’s like to be in porn. A lot of those questions revolve around the filming process itself. Recently, a blog reader named Pete B. watched the behind-the-scenes video of Trenton Ducati and Jimmy Durano from Incubus and asked me a lot of excellent questions about what it’s like on the set of a Titan film, and rather than answer him directly, I thought I’d do it in a blog post so everyone could read it. I hope you find it insightful! Here are Pete’s questions:

I’m always amazed watching a porn top thrust and hump for such extended periods in a film. Maybe it isn’t all done at once, but still, I have wondered how tired the top is when such scenes are done? And how does a bottom’s ass keep from wearing out after being pounded for so long?

I had never thought about the director needing to know which hand a guy jerks himself off with, relative to filming the cum shot, as well as which direction his cock points when stiff, all things the cameraman and the director need to be aware of. Moving your leg to what feels weird for you, but so the camera can get a better shot of the other guy’s dick going in your ass, must be awkward at the moment. With all the hydrating going on during long filming, how often do you have to stop to take a piss? (You must use up LOTS of condoms filming a scene…) And knowing that the bottom has to think about his “hygiene” – hence you’ve got to plan your eating schedule carefully – I can imagine that when you are doing a bottom scene, you probably get pretty hungry as well. In the midst of all that, you’re trying to stay horned-up and hard for long periods of time, yet with cameras, lights, lots of production guys, and directions being given, so how do you keep it looking so real?

It’s kind of surreal watching the guys standing there talking details while one of them is naked, with an erect cock that he’s nonchalantly stroking to keep hard, and then a few moments later he sticks it back in the other guy’s ass and starts humping again. Other than the incredibly hot thought that you’re actually filming porn, does it really feel as hot for you–as the person having staged sex–as it eventually comes off on-screen? I bet that there’s a real turn-on knowing others are standing nearby watching while you’re having sex with another incredibly hot guy.

Yes, there’s a lot of starting and stopping while cameras are repositioned… in fact, when you watch the final product, in a lot of cases you’re actually seeing something that the genius editors have pieced together from separate takes and multiple cameras. (Titan’s Rough line is a notable exception; those are generally filmed in real-time, which I love!) And having topped in three films now, I can tell you that I am, indeed, EXHAUSTED at the end. The Titan guys give us plenty of Gatorade (not red Gatorade, though… it makes your spit look pink), and encourage us to stay hydrated. Believe me, we need it. I feel like I sweat gallons! And when I bottom, yeah, I’m tired as well… but fortunately, all that stopping and starting gives my ass a chance to recover a bit. Plus, if we ever need a break, the production staff give us as long as we need. They’re really cool about that, and don’t seem to mind waiting one bit. That takes the pressure off tremendously.

Jimmy Durano and Trenton Ducati in "François Sagat's Incubus, Part 1"

There are a lot of instructions that the director will call out during the course of a scene; if your hand is getting in the way of their shot, for example, he (or she, in the case of Mr. Pam!) will tell you to draw your hand back. Another common command is “stay open to camera,” which means you have to tilt your body away from the cameraman to allow a clear view of the action. When you’re topping, this can mean repositioning yourself at a somewhat awkward angle (YOU try fucking your partner from the side!), and that can be uncomfortable. But you’re always free to ask the directors for a break.

I’ve found that the more scenes I film, the fewer interjections the director has been making. That must mean I’m starting to pick some of this shit up! 🙂  But when the director does speak up, I’ve learned to think of it as “a little voice in the back of my head” telling me what to do. That way I can continue focusing on my scene partner and continue essentially uninterrupted. But once in a while a pause is necessary so the production crew can reposition the lights and cameras (typically there are three cameras running at once), and every time we stop we grab a fresh condom… so it’s not uncommon to go through a half dozen condoms or more during a scene.

My scene in "Incubus, Part 2," as seen from the director's table

I usually use those breaks to pee just in case the next take last a long time, but most people don’t need to pee all that often. The intensity of the scene means that you’re actually sweating out a lot of that water. And when you’re about to shoot a watersports scene, you don’t get to pee at all! (See my blog post Water you waiting for? A Pee Q&A for more on that.) And yes, the temptation to eat is great. I usually have a small breakfast before the shoot, since photography (for the DVD cover and whatnot) is done first and I want my abs to be visible. 🙂  Then I try to nibble on something throughout the day to keep my energy level up. And when the shoot is done, I usually go right out and get a double cheeseburger and onion rings! (And a Diet Coke, because I like the taste better. Honest.)

And finally, the hotness of the scene, for me at least, really depends on the level of connection with my scene partner. It’s easier to stay horned up if I’m truly into the guy, which has been the case in most of my scenes so far. Once in a while, though… the connection simply isn’t there. (Actually, that’s unfair… I’ve connected on some level with every scene partner so far, but not necessarily a sexual connection.) In cases like that, I’ve focused on the intensity of the feeling rather than the connection with the other guy, and that has done the trick. And as for those other people watching… actually, no, that’s not really a turn-on for me. As I mentioned earlier, I try to think of the other people in the room as being in the back of my head, and turn all my attention to my scene partner or the intensity of the sex. I’ve always felt that the connection is what makes for a great scene, and I’ve been trying to carry that into the films that I’ve made. I hope it’s working!

If you have any questions about porn, please feel free to drop me a line on Facebook, Twitter, or make a comment on any of my blog posts. I try my best to respond to everybody.

Oh, one last thing: Sorry to disappoint, guys. Titan doesn’t employ fluffers. 🙁

Director François Sagat at the "Incubus" helm

California Dream-Men, a Fine Gage of Character, and a Fond Farewell… For Now

The 2011 Folsom Street Fair was my first chance to meet most of my Titan colleagues. Every year, on the night before the fair, the Titan exclusives and production staff always get together for a big banquet, as it’s the only point during the year when we’re all in the same city at the same time. I walked into the Grand Pu Bah restaurant in SoMa a few minutes late — San Francisco geography still eludes me sometimes — to find some of the hottest men I’d ever seen all seated around one large table… Hunter Marx, Ameyric Deville, Marco Wilson, David Anthony, Jessy Ares, Dario Beck, François Sagat… all of my fellow Titan exclusives. It was a dream come true for me. I’d already worked with Hunter on Surveillance and François on Incubus, but it was my first time meeting anyone else. In particular, one of these incredibly sexy men and I hit it off immediately, and after Folsom we continued to exchange messages on Facebook. We knew that if we ever shot a scene together, it would be really, really hot.

Two days ago, we finally got our chance… with the legendary Joe Gage directing.

And it was fucking incendiary.

I’m very happy to be able to announce, with Titan’s blessing, that my super-hot, I’ve-always-wanted-to-work-with-him scene partner was……………

TitanMen exclusive Jessy Ares! What an amazingly hot, talented, hilarious, kind, sexy man. He’s a consummate professional when it comes to shooting porn, but also a total goofball. We had tons of fun on set and laughed a lot. The same-name thing caused a bit of a problem while we were working, though. After some initial confusion, it eventually led to the Titan guys calling us by our last names; Brian Mills seemed to especially enjoy yelling “JACKMAN! GET IN HERE!” whenever he wanted to find me. He sounded just like Mr. Spacely from The Jetsons.

Jessy and I got a chance to hang out a little outside the studio as well… our workout at Gold’s Gym in the Castro was killer!


Our scene was originally to be titled “Military Exam Room #7”; I was to play a US Army colonel submitting to a routine medical examination performed, of course, by Army medic Jessy Ares. However, Joe Gage had a last-minute flash of inspiration and came up with a very cool new idea the day before the shoot. I can’t go into details yet, but I can tell you that the theme is very topical; it was inspired by recent actual events that you might have heard about on CNN.

Working for Joe was an incredible experience. He shot his first adult film, Kansas City Trucking Company, in 1976 (I was 3 years old!), and his 36 years of filmmaking experience really show. His instructions were direct, concise, and easy to understand, yet he was completely relaxed and flexible enough to work with us actors to produce not only a hot scene, but one that we really enjoyed filming. It truly was one of the most exciting experiences of my young porn career. I had so much fun. And Joe must have liked what he saw, because when were done filming, he told me that I looked great on camera and that he would like to work with me again! Joe seems like a straight-shooting, down-to-earth guy… and Titan director Jasun Mark later assured me that wouldn’t have said something like that unless he meant it. Wow… what an honor!

Here’s a candid shot that Jasun took on the set during a break, and a picture of me holding Joe’s script (yes, I got a chance to flex my acting chops as well):


My second day of filming was just as intense, but also a bit bittersweet. My scene partner was Adam Russo; I’d never met him before, so I didn’t know what to expect. As it turns out, Adam was a dream come true as well: smart, sexy, and very comfortable in his own skin. We got along great… and great chemistry makes for a great scene.

We really turned up the intensity on this shoot (prompting fetish director Paul Wilde at one point to say “We have got to get you guys into a Rough scene”) because it was a pretty special one. You see, it was director Brian Mills’ last film…. for a while, anyway. Brian is going on extended sabbatical starting next week so that he can focus on other projects. He’s taught me so much about this industry and given me the guidance and encouragement to build the confidence I need to be a successful porn actor. I’ve had so many questions, and he’s always been right there to answer them, with patience and without judgement. His final words to me were “you’re on your way to becoming a legend.” I don’t know if I’d go that far, Brian! But your faith in me has meant so much over these last several crazy months. Thank you. I’m gonna miss you… and Dakota too. She’s best porn dog ever!

I really hope we get to work together again soon.


By the way, there’s no word yet on when either scene will be released… although Joe Gage’s scene will be released fairly soon, I would imagine, because of its association with current events. As soon as I hear anything I’ll post it here (and, as always, on my Facebook and Twitter feeds too).